Thursdays

oh hurt me
hurt me please
make it hurt good
not just a tease
as my time draws close
my pulse begins 2 quicken
do i really want to do this
is the thought that i am thinking
but i forced myself 2 this point
so i cant turn back now
& why would i want 2
because i'm afraid of a little pain
but thats what i want, what i need
because when i'm @ a time
when i think the pain of living is high
this brings me 2 reality
& shows me what pain is all about
& when i'm @ a time when
in life i'm happy & high
his shows me i can still hurt
so when i'm happy & high...i'll know why
the needles always bring me
2 the exact same place
a place of pain that i love most
& shows me my worst & my best

you're not learning...you're remembering

Existence yet unaware
consciousness parented by your despair
self inducement of perceptual limitations
invisible shackles of emotional complications
persecution allowed by your complaisant minds
providing doubt many places to hide
thought processes blocked by your programmed behavior
unable to see you are your own savior
searching outside you need not do
for infinite knowledge exists inside of  you
lost....yet everywhere....all at once
belief of actual physical location
understood by deducing time and place relation
universal consciousness living within
but your point of perception
is the size of the head of a pin

              -100thMonkeyJedi